Melissa

HOLY CRAP..it's been a while since i've even been on this thing..A LOT has happened since then! I have a new boyfriend (who nobody knows..unless you worked at lowes) His name is Rob S. and i'm actually really really happy!! I haven't felt this happy in a long long time. He is such a sweetheart and i really like him A LOT! We have only been together for a month but it feels like it's been much longer.

I still work at Lowe's (but i'm looking for a new job, if anyone knows anywhere that is hiring...please let me know). I hate working 50 hours a week :( but, that's what i get paid good money to do.

I just came back from vacation! I went to Myrtle Beach (south carolina) for a week with the girls (Kristina, Dawn, Danielle, and we met up with Krystle for a night) It was a lot of fun. I have a TON of pictures..i'll have to put some up when i'm back at my apt. We went to 2 different clubs (which were ok..but, i was a good girl b/c i have a bf!!) :) We went parasailing!!! That was absolutly amazing! I loved it! Anybody that gets a chance to do that...please..don't hesitate!!! It was well worth the $55! I did the crip walk in front of 10 black guys...i showed them up! It was great...It was also raining a lot there..but, it was beautiful the last 2 days we were there!! However, while i was there i got home sickness really bad...maybe it was just b/c i wanted to see my baby :( But, as he says "absonce makes the heart grow fonder" and he was def. right!!! :) I def. missed him so much!

Well, i'm gonna head out now b.c. i'm starting to get tired and i wanna be all ready for my baby tomorrow (he's coming back from work and we are going to the beach tomorrow (well today) :) can't wait)

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: The sound of the hotels AC

FUCK YOU ASHLEY P.!!!!!!!

Thanks for butting in my life!

Thanks for making matters worse!

Don't talk to me!

Why can't people mind their own business??????????

Current Mood: pissed off

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

I can't wait till tomorrow
I can't wait till tomorrow
I can't wait till tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be one hectic day...but, the best none the least! I can't wait to be with my baby and exchange gifts with him! He's going to love his gifts i bought him!!

I FINALLY cleaned out my room downstairs!!! All ready for my brother to move in! I can't wait to switch rooms with him. I wish we could switch tonight!

Off to go into the shower

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: My brother watching ET

Well, i checked my grades out..i def. have a 3.0 average! oh yeah! Go me! Lyndsey, Kristina, and me all traded gifts today...it was sweet! Those girls give good gifts! You would think i like fleece or something? haha...

Anyway, today was the christmas party for my work (i work at a daycare) and the kids were absolutley wild today!! We had between 25-30 kids all day today..some left some came..it was a day from hell. I really thought i wasn't going to last. I lost my cool today and screamed on the top of my lungs 4 times...and i told kids to "shutup" which is a swear to them..hehe...opps..it's ok i wasn't the only one who lost her cool "Mrs. O" did too. It was crazy. Oh and the poopie diapers didn't help either..especially today..extra poopie.

I will NEVER eat that much again. My tummy hurts. My 11 pounds i lost just came back (i really hope not..but, i will weigh myself tomorrow)

JOEL is back!!!!! I hung out with him! He's my guy best friend. Tomorrow he is going to pennsylvania =( oh well...at least i got to see him b4 he leaves..then he comes back and he's supposed to call me..which is good

MICHAEL i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUAH!

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Some song lyndsey is playing for me over aim

Still feeling sick, one of my good friends krystal called me this morning which was great hearing from her!! I haven't talked to her in a while...things have been screwed up..lots of stress with school and friends and bf and family...eh, pretty much everything...but, everything now is ALL GOOD! So, i hope me and krystal hang out soon..she's one cool chic!~ She is such a good friend too! Just like my other two best friends Kristina and Lyndsey. This break is going to be awesome!!

Yesterday was a good day you know why? I'll tell you (i picked out two socks from the basket and guess what they were??? MATCHING!!!! oh yeah, my socks matched for once) "If anyone that is reading this doesn't really know me (I never have matching socks on..and when i say never matching i mean a pink with a blue or dolphins on one sock and monkey's on the other...you know how it is) You do a load of laundry and all your socks get messed up...hey i don't care right!! Unmatching socks are the style now right?!!! haha

I'm still sick which sucks donkey butt! But, I still have to go to work today =(

AND THE BIGGEST NEWS EVER**** My mom called me yesterday...HOLY SHIT!!! Now, i haven't heard from my mom in like 3 years and the only time she ever called me was to bitch about things...well, can you only guess why she called me this time?? The second question out of her mouth was "How come you didn't invite me and you grandmother to your graduation?"
hmmm...let me think about that one...maybe because you cheated on my dad left RI totally, TOOK MY FREAKIN BED, abused me and my bro when we were younger...and the list goes ON! So, i talked to her for about 45 min. and we screamed at eachother for about 35 min. Then i pretty much told her i want a mother in my life..and to forget about everything in the past and start over..she didn't take it to well...then she actually thought about it and agreed..so, i'm going over to her house (in New Bedford Mass.) the saturday after christmas. This shall be interesting..haven't spoken to my mom in 3 years and now i'm going over her house....WEIRD...but, i hope everything works out for the best and i hope SHE'S changed and she's not the bitch she used to be.

Ok, i think this long entry is done now...

P.S. MY SOCKS MATCH TODAY!! =) today is a good day! (and no they aren't the same as yesterday's!!!!)

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Silence=good

Don't feel good i'm sick....blah...going to lay down now!

Current Mood: sick

i got a couple of things on my mind. How do you know it will all be worth it in the end? How do you know when enough is enough? How do you tell someone your mad at them when they don't know? Why do people go behind your back all the time? Why can't people tell things to your face?

I guess some things will never change....

On the other hand..i lost 10 pounds which is good!

I went to the patriots football game last sunday and it was great!! I went with my sweetie and his best friend. We got FREE tickets and we got to go into the clubhouse which is awesome!! We didn't just sit there in the cold all day..we could go get drinks or food..it was great!

** But, I still feel like shit b/c of the way i've been treated lately.

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Home Improvement

Sorry i haven't been updating..my computer has a virus in it. Stupid brother..if he would just stop downloading porn everything would be ok! haha. I'm so happy i have one of my best friends LYNDSEY back! She isn't mad at me anymore!!! YAY!!! I feel sooo much better now..more relived with the friends thing..but, not relieved with the school thing...i hate school and i think everyone can agree with me there. This is the last week i only have 2 finals left and then i'm done! YEESSS!! Wednesday i'm done...HELL YAH..can't wait till wednesday. well...talk to all of you later

Current Mood: aggravated

I wish i had enough money to live in an apartment RIGHT THIS SECOND!! Lyndsey and I have looked and we can't afford it right now, but by summer..we be movin in! We would rather move into an apartment than a dorm. The cheapest one was $350 EACH a month for 2 beds and all utilities..that's pretty damn good for utilities. We'll see...

My brother needs to be taken away from my household. Normally when someone says that their brother is bad..well, my brother is BAD!! He used to deal to his friends, He got arrested 2 times, he tried to throw me down the stairs last week, he threw my body into the shower then threw me out of the bathroom last sunday and my dad does absolutley NOTHING abut it. My dad is NEVER home.. He lives with his gf.. I mean it's bad enough my mom up an left for some guy in massachusettes..my dad is doing it too. I never thought i'd be like one of those people that wants to move out of the house. But, when is my dad going to take action and do something?? When i'm in the hospital? Or even better when i'm dead?? My brother does have ADHD but he still knows what the fuk he's doing. Something has to be done. I mean..my house is goig to have absolutley NOTHING left.. he's taking all of the things in my house and selling them to buy weed.. I hate my family life right now. I'm so lucky i have friends! Lyndsey, Kristina, Michael, and Krystal all want me to move in with them.. but i'd rather talk to my dad first..and if he is seriously not going to do anthing i'm calling the cops on my brother next time and i'm moving out and i'm not looking back. I truly think this is the right thing to do. I don't understand how my parents absolutly don't care..and a million people say to me "They do care..they care a lot" But i'm sorry..they don't..and i don't want anybodys simpathy either..i'm a big girl i and deal with things..but, this is getting worse. I can't stay at home anymore..i mean it's pretty bad when im afraid to go home because i might end up in the hospital! Things are crazy! We'll see what happens tonight (i'm talking to my dad) hopefully he is going to do something for once!! Maybe he'll actuall STAY home for once in his life...whenever he has a gf he is ALWAYS at their house.. no matter who it is..and when he's not he's home miserable..it sucks! Having divorced parents suck..especially when the other one (my mom) could give 2 shits about me.. seeing i haven't talk to her in over 2 years..and when she left me ONE voicemail..she wanted to know what was up with my dad (no i love you, i want to see you..NONE OF THAT) she's a bitch and she can DIE.. But, i feel as if my dad is doing the same thing.. i don't know.. i need to move out NOW... i'm done telling the world my problems.........

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: IM chimes

Lyndsey is over and i'm having fun!!!!

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: lyndsey singing